I have been waiting for this day for over six months, I cannot believe that it is FINALLY here! This is the real deal. Sitting at home with my family I cannot even begin to fathom how blessed I truely am here. I have an amazing God who lets me experience this world and show me new and different things, a supportive family who loves me, an awesome second family (Peterson's, Preble's, and other Peterson's), fantastic roommates, and a group of 13 beautiful girls all of whom I get to share my struggles, triumphs, and doubts with. Can anyone really ask for anything better than that?!
God is continuing to show me new things, I am just in awe of him. It never ceases. In the last week I had been trying to decide if going to Africa was REALLY what God wanted for me. I wished so badly I could be in both places at one time. So I could be here in the states for my family and my best friend as they go through difficult times but I also just want to fix everybody's broken heart and be in Africa too. But lets be for real here. Physically, I cannot do that. Then God just whispered in my ear.......we are ALL part of the body of Christ, so I am a part of that body. If I am part of that body and YOU are part of that body, then really I am still here even when I am in Africa. I am everywhere that God is and He is omnipresent (meaning literally everywhere). And really it isn't MY heart that is yearning for these things, to fix all these broken hearts, and mend all of these relationships, but it is HIS heart that He has given to me since I have given Him all of my earthly self (or at least to the best of my abilities). How awesome right?!
I cannot wait to see all that God has waiting in Africa. He is moving people! How sweet! He is going to be able to use this trip in awesome ways that I don't even know about or can begin to imagine yet. Everyone keeps telling me "This is going to change your life". I cannot even begin to know how, but to be honest I hope this trip doesn't just change my life. I hope it RUINS my life. Ruins my life so much that I cannot go back to living the "normal" American life that I do I don't want the American dream, I want God's dream for my life. I hope that it RUINS my life so much that my heart BREAKS for the people there and I have to do something about it. God has placed a desire (Psalms 37:4 again) in my heart to go to Africa long, long ago. So I intend for this trip to ruin my life for good and all for the glory of our beautiful Savior. Plane boards in 4 hours...ready. set. go.
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